Countdown to lonely

I told myself that I wasn't going to get upset about Oscar's upcoming leave of absence from our house, but apparently I didn't listen. As the hours and days have gotten closer, I find myself trying to hold onto every "last" event before he leaves. Like my last opportunity to make him eggs, he didn't want them today or yesterday, so I guess that last already came. Our last nightly viewing of our favorite show "King of Queens," will we have time to do that tonight or should I have taken more notice of sitting in front of the boob tube with him the other night? My last morning waking up with him without a distraction...when was that? Tomorrow Oscar leaves in the afternoon. In our "last" hours before he leaves, we will have our "last" TGIF Family Donut Day (or El Centinela), our last "drop Holder off at school together" day, but more importantly our last "drop Oscar off at the airport to go to Iraq" day.

Although I have some wonderful and fun things planned while he's gone, they don't replace him.